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Monday Morning Meanderings

Monday, March 8th, 2010

It truly is the wee hours of the morning. I really should be trying to sleep, but my mind is racing around in a frenzy, knowing that there are tons of things that I should have been doing this weekend that didn’t get done.

67/365 memories

Knowing that I have to be up at the darkest hour before dawn to be at the hospital by 5:30 isn’t helping me either. I know that this is the right decision, but at the moment I am filled with a bit of apprehension and anxiety. Fear of the unknown, even when it is an anticipated thing isn’t easy. But I know that the surgeon and staff are the best and I am surrounded by the love of my crazy, chaotic family and have the support of all my knitting and fiber buddies as well.

I am not sure what I will feel like for a few days post surgery. I’ll try to sneak in a blog post and 365 photo where I can. I have packed some knitting, but nothing complex. It’s a good thing that I don’t mind mindless garter stitch upon occasion!

Monday Meanderings

Monday, March 1st, 2010

Almost ten years ago, when my girls were much much younger, I was diagnosed with breast cancer and had a mastectomy. It was shortly after my youngest was weaned and she saw me as I emerged from the shower. As I remember it, the conversation between the two of us went something like this:

Shann: Mommy, you don’t have a nursing? It’s gone?
Me: Yes honey, it’s gone.
Shann: Will you get another one?
Me: No. I don’t think so.
Shann: That’s okay Mommy. Maybe tomorrow.

I have held that memory close throughout the years. That simple acceptance that no matter what, that I was still Mommy, still me was a gift beyond measure. It carried me through the physical healing process from surgery, the nausea and hair loss from chemotherapy. I don’t know if either girl understood then, or if they will ever know how much the simplicity of their acceptance helped carry me through that time in my life.

Maybe tomorrow. That tomorrow is almost here. Next Monday I will undergo the reconstruction phase of this journey. It seems weird to write of it but it is part of my cancer journey and recovery. It won’t be easy. But it is time.

60/365 Woolgirl Rocks!

eta 3/2/10: I apologize for my really awful editing last night when I posted this. Sorry!

Monday Meandering

Monday, February 15th, 2010

It is the Monday after Madrona and although the weekend was wonderful and I left with many inspiring things floating and percolating in my mind, I am glad to be home, surrounded by my husbeast and my kids. Family is good.

46/365 somewhat random

I think that the processing of the weekend will take some time. So for now, the photo of the day will have to be enough. It is somewhat appropriate.

Monday Meanderings

Monday, February 8th, 2010

While the east coast is busy dodging storms and digging out their sidewalks, here in the Pacific Northwest, it is all about the various shades of green that are popping up all over. Including serious progress on my Ginny sweater.

39/365 shades of green

I have now finished the back and am on to the front. I can’t seem to take a picture that shows the actual true color of this sweater, it is more of a sage green than this photo shows, but I loved the way that the light caught the differences between the yarn that is knitted up and the yarn still in the ball. Little things like that really amuse me.

It still isn’t light long enough for me to get much yard work done after work, I am hoping that by next week that will change. I am looking forward to getting my yard back in order and am busy trying to figure out where to sneak some vegetables in instead of flowers. It’s all about the process. Over the past few years we have put in a couple of apple trees, a few blueberry bushes and this spring a dwarf cherry tree is going in the back yard. As the Husbeast fondly reminds me, I am a farmer’s daughter. If I had my way, the big towering fir trees in the back yard would give way to a huge pile of firewood and I would have my own little orchard back there instead. I haven’t won that argument yet. But I am working on it, even as much as I am on the fence about the idea. We would have to sacrifice a bit of our privacy in the back yard if the trees went away and I am not sure that any of us really want to do that any time soon.

I haven’t been in much of a meandering mood lately, but that doesn’t mean that there aren’t thoughts percolating in the back of my mind. Ideas do that. They sit in the corners and simmer until they either boil over, or sneak back into my thoughts and demand to be set free. Sometimes they don’t even wait until Mondays!

Monday Meanderings

Monday, February 1st, 2010

It has been the year of non-winter around these parts. The weather has been wet, but extremely mild. I feel as if we have skipped the winter months and jumped right into spring.

32/365 Signs of Spring

Sometimes I feel that way about my kids too. I realize that I have spent almost every day of their lives with them, yet all of the sudden they aren’t little anymore, they are balancing that very fine line twixt childhood and some semblance of maturity. Fee is about ready to learn to drive for goodness sake. I wonder if my parents entered that era of my education with extreme fear and trepidation?

Monday Meanderings

Monday, January 25th, 2010

Well that was interesting. A sheep pretending to be a pachyderm.

25/365 Wandering Sheep

And the cat is definitely the odd one out.

Monday Meanderings

Monday, January 18th, 2010

The taking pictures part is easy. Coming up with things to say every day isn’t going to be as smooth.

18/365 Waiting for Nightfall

It’s Monday and once again the weekend has faded away into the promise of another week. Already the week is over full and the kids weren’t even in school today. By some miracle or another it finally stopped raining for a change. I managed a rather nice walk after work, which was in itself quite refreshing after being forced to spend way too much time indoors this weekend.

My husbeast has a set of ankle weights that he often wears as he is walking around. Apparently one of them managed a very small tear, providing an out for some of the sand. He was saying that he needed a new pair and looked at me like I was nuts when I suggested that he use duct tape to stem the leak.

I don’t understand why. I think that it was a perfectly plausible solution.

Monday Meanderings

Monday, January 11th, 2010

We all need a bit of sunshine. Today mine took the form of this poor little pansy, who has bravely withstood a fairly mild PNW winter.

A splash of yellow

When it is pouring down rain, sometimes you have to grab the bright spots when they are offered.

Monday Morning Meanderings

Monday, December 28th, 2009

Christmas weekend was a busy one. Due to having to cancel part of our Christmas day afternoon plans, we spent the day at home, enjoying each other’s company, playing with the new wii fit that was under the tree Christmas morning. I was reminded of my childhood, where the day was spent playing, reading, eating and squabbling. Rinsed and repeated until my frazzled maternal unit could take no more and shooed us outside to pummel each other to a figurative pulp.

The simple things of the weekend were the best. And with that it is time to scoot off to work. I had meant for the final meanderings of the year to be a bit more profound, but time is short and ideas are even slimmer to come by at the moment.

Monday Morning Meanderings

Monday, December 21st, 2009

I’ve been knitting myself into a corner. One sock blanket is done, a few more rectangles accomplished on the other. I have spent what seems like an inordinate amount of time attempting to untangle the clutter in the living room, only to have it explode in to a larger mess.

I’d like to call uncle and give everything a rest. In reality it isn’t that simple. Life, work and kid stuff seems to soldier on, no matter what I do or don’t do. Quite frankly, I feel as if my creativity has fallen into a bottomless bucket, leaving me capable only of miles and miles of garterstitch on size 0 needles. Clearly, I need to get a life.

On the other hand, perhaps not is all lost. Let me tell you a story about three women who meet for coffee and the difference between knitter and non-knitter was self-evident after a couple of hours. The non-knitter was distracted, restless and making grumblings about the things to be accomplished for the rest of the day. The knitters? They could have cared less if they were there three more hours.

Just refill my coffee cup damn it and pass me that ball of sock yarn. I’ve got it all under control.